Step 1

or should I say first step...my first step was to find out why I was different, which I was very conspicously right from my childhood? Was something wrong with me? ...and when I did find out I knew I had a long way to go. So here I am almost a decade after my realisation of who I really am trying to do something about it. I haven't started my T shots yet.
However, I plan to do so soon. Till then my posts are going to be pretty much ramblings about myself and feelings, my realisations and so on. But till then I'm doing the research required, asking...asking...asking. Some transguys have been extremely patient with me answering. Now I have all the answers, the address where to go, what to do, whom to approach. But I'm not going anywhere...the excuse I have is money or lack of it...but deep down...I'm just scared...about the unknown...I want it very badly, but am I ready yet? Will find out soon. Next month is when I'm going to take that first step in the direction of the T...that is only four days away...not the appointment but the new month.